<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?><rss xmlns:dc="http://purl.org/dc/elements/1.1/" xmlns:content="http://purl.org/rss/1.0/modules/content/" xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" version="2.0" xmlns:itunes="http://www.itunes.com/dtds/podcast-1.0.dtd" xmlns:googleplay="http://www.google.com/schemas/play-podcasts/1.0"><channel><title><![CDATA[Becoming Music]]></title><description><![CDATA[Neuroqueer philosopher-artist Qid Love on experimental music, contemplative improvisation, and music as a spiritual practice.]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com</link><image><url>https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qRFX!,w_256,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd158cdba-1f95-4d56-970a-086800e8b3b5_1280x1280.png</url><title>Becoming Music</title><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com</link></image><generator>Substack</generator><lastBuildDate>Tue, 07 Apr 2026 20:50:48 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My recordings are generally more durational in nature, but I wanted these to be consumable by folks with less time to commit.<br><br>The title has dual meanings: 1. electronic communication via sound waves; 2. a direct, non-spoken passing of spiritual energy or consciousness.</p><h3>Creating on Crip Time</h3><p>The goal of FAWM is to record at least 14 songs in 28 days. I managed 5 over 3 days. I&#8217;ve been feeling my disability a lot more directly lately, with fatigue, inability to focus, and lessened executive function taking a chunk out of my available time for sitting with my guitar. I am grateful for what I have and I try to be kind to myself, but sometimes the math is depressing when I think about how much I still have to explore and how little time and energy I have to make it happen. At the end of it, I suppose I will have done the best I can with the resources I had available, and perhaps that&#8217;s all any of us can wish for.</p><p>I&#8217;ve recently had to formally request disability accommodations at my day job and it has me feeling a certain kind of way. I&#8217;ve had informal relational accommodations by verbal agreement and understanding, but this feels so much different, having to document everything and get supporting letters from my care team, for a committee to determine if they&#8217;re willing to allow me to continue working in the same way I&#8217;ve been working all along. </p><p>Disability has of course shaped my musical practice in many ways over my life and I must remind myself that this is just another leg of the path. Making music is a primary path to meaning for me, and I will always find a way to connect to spirit through music. And while I truly only make music for my own purposes, I do hope that I can transmit some of my deep understanding of the spiritual power of music to those willing to listen.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks so much for taking a few minutes out of your day to be with me in this space. If you stumbled across this newsletter and haven&#8217;t subscribed yet, now&#8217;s your chance!</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://substack.mxqidlove.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://substack.mxqidlove.com/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Sorry For Your Loss]]></title><description><![CDATA[Hatred is a blanket smothering the soul and blocking out the light...]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/sorry-for-your-loss</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/sorry-for-your-loss</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 17 Jan 2026 06:58:34 GMT</pubDate><enclosure 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data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3135212754/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><h3>About this release</h3><p>This work came together over the last 5 days, spread across mediums, too powerful to be held in a single form. This is intended as a virtual asynchronous exhibit with music, artwork and poetry. Read the poem and then listen to the music while viewing the artwork.</p><h3>Sorry For Your Loss</h3><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text">Hatred is a blanket
Smothering the soul
And blocking out the light
Yet warm and safe and simple
Stifling echoes in silence
The ghostly grip of your mother&#8217;s arms
Dislodging the cries from your belly

Love can be lonely
Needing a soft target
Positioned for penetration
Wrapping gratefully around
The sharpness of your desire
Suddenly trapping and clinging
Siphoning your soul

Hatred is a shield
Reflecting possibility
Protecting your lonely child
Projecting completeness in separation
Cheered by brothers and fathers
Needing your pain to satiate theirs
A sacred circle of sacrifice

Love is elusive
Property of the pitiful
Bitches and abominations
Godforsaken and forsaking god
Your anger may be righteous
But we&#8217;re not mad at you
Just sorry for your loss</pre></div><div><hr></div><p>Thanks so much for taking a few minutes out of your day to be with me in this space. If you stumbled across this newsletter and haven&#8217;t subscribed yet, now&#8217;s your chance!</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://substack.mxqidlove.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://substack.mxqidlove.com/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Network News plus The Eye Man Experiments]]></title><description><![CDATA[Experimental Music Network updates]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/network-news-plus-the-eye-man-experiments</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/network-news-plus-the-eye-man-experiments</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Tue, 13 Jan 2026 02:00:36 GMT</pubDate><enclosure 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It&#8217;s been just over a week since I opened up the Experimental Music Network Discord server, and it&#8217;s already off to a great start. We have 130 members so far, which is crazy, and the numbers keep growing daily.</p><p>Beyond the thought-provoking discussions nestled away in the general chat and the tools and techniques section, we have forums for sharing releases, works-in-progress, scores, writings, collabs, and calls for submission. Folks have shared a good number of music recommendations and over a dozen releases so far. </p><p>If you haven&#8217;t had a chance to check it out, or maybe forgot you joined, here&#8217;s an invitation to get in there and catch up on what&#8217;s cool and experimental!</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://discord.gg/9XZ49ZzrGT&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Join the Discord&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://discord.gg/9XZ49ZzrGT"><span>Join the Discord</span></a></p><h2>Regarding this Newsletter</h2><p>There are two main types of Discord users in my experience: those who use Discord a lot and can&#8217;t keep up with all the servers they&#8217;ve joined, and those who regularly forget it exists altogether. My hope with this newsletter is to remind folks that we&#8217;re here on a weekly basis or so and maybe catch you up on the most interesting things that you might have missed. Having said that, I&#8217;m learning to be a little gentle on myself when it comes to over-committing, so these updates will come when I have time to sit down and make them happen.</p><h2>General Chat</h2><p>The last week has understandably been a lot of introductions as folks stream into the server, but there&#8217;s also been a decent amount of thought-provoking conversation, including this morning&#8217;s question from user GodlyAxe: &#8220;How do you think the music you are making relates to the Erotic, if at all? How do you think it relates to Desire?&#8221; Log in and join the conversation in <a href="https://discord.com/channels/1457269978062655634/1457269979417149618/1460292916898566276">#general-chat</a>.</p><h2>Releases</h2><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://ayman.bandcamp.com/album/the-eye-man-experiments&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;The Eye Man Experiments, by Aymantium&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;17 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/67cd95ac-306e-4984-bfa9-5d6e41118096_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Aymantium&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=2983806758/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=2983806758/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>There are tons of new posts in the releases section this week, and it&#8217;s been great to see folks actually engaging with the posts and supporting each other. I don&#8217;t have a lot of listening time available myself, but I did manage to listen to the entirety of Aymantium&#8217;s &#8220;The Eye Man Experiments&#8221; this morning, which I thoroughly enjoyed. It has the feeling of a 70&#8217;s prog-rocker reacting to a magical time-bending radio tuned to the 90&#8217;s. </p><p>Here are the album notes from the artist:</p><blockquote><p>The Eye Man Experiments is a compilation of tracks made over time, mostly around 2022-2024 to Now, that never really found a proper release. Some of these songs were finished and published under my other projects (Vecraft, MURGOD..), others were experiments and ideas that i did before starting publishing.<br><br>This compilation serves as an archive of my experiments. it moves freely between punk, metal, dungeon synth, acoustic, ambient, and noise-driven ideas, treating genre as a tool rather than a boundary.</p></blockquote><p>If you&#8217;re a member, you can <a href="https://discord.com/channels/1457269978062655634/1458099532301865010">join the conversation here</a>.</p><div><hr></div><p>That&#8217;s it for now. I&#8217;m sure this newsletter will continue to evolve as the community does, so stay tuned. If there&#8217;s anything specific you&#8217;d like to see here, let me know!</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/network-news-plus-the-eye-man-experiments/comments&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Leave a comment&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/network-news-plus-the-eye-man-experiments/comments"><span>Leave a comment</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[The Death of Good]]></title><description><![CDATA[A processing of personal and collective grief]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/the-death-of-good</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/the-death-of-good</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 08 Jan 2026 21:41:16 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!aQCT!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa1c4274f-0e12-4e67-93a8-18ae3ee84f87_4096x4096.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!aQCT!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa1c4274f-0e12-4e67-93a8-18ae3ee84f87_4096x4096.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!aQCT!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa1c4274f-0e12-4e67-93a8-18ae3ee84f87_4096x4096.jpeg 424w, 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data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=1178931347/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><h3>This is a processing of personal and collective grief.</h3><p>During this morning&#8217;s guitar meditation session, I found myself continuing to dwell on and process the shock, fear, and grief that many of us are feeling. These tracks are the result of that. I wanted to release and share this to mark a moment and to never forget or forgive what they are taking from us.</p><p>From <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Killing_of_Renee_Good">Wikipedia</a>:</p><p>On January 7, 2026, Renee Nicole Good, a 37-year-old woman and US citizen, was fatally shot by a United States Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) agent Jonathan Ross in Minneapolis, Minnesota. Good was idling in a car at the scene of an ongoing ICE operation, when she was approached by ICE agents who gave conflicting orders. As Good attempted to exit the area, in response to one of the issued orders, she passed near Ross, who shot her in the head, despite not standing in the path of the car. Federal officials and President Donald Trump have defended the shooting, claiming Ross acted in self-defense and falsely claiming that Good attempted to run him over. These claims have been widely debunked by eyewitnesses, by journalists&#8217; analysis of video footage, by local figures, and by Democratic Party lawmakers, the latter of whom have called for a criminal investigation.</p><p>(Note: the price of this album is an artistic statement. Please go to my GetMusic page and <a href="https://getmusic.fm/r/qid-love-the-death-of-good">get it for free</a>.)</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks so much for taking a few minutes out of your day to be with me in this space. If you stumbled across this newsletter and haven&#8217;t subscribed yet, now&#8217;s your chance!</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://substack.mxqidlove.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://substack.mxqidlove.com/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Introducing the Experimental Music Network]]></title><description><![CDATA[...or "The Network" for short.]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/introducing-the-experimental-music</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/introducing-the-experimental-music</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 04 Jan 2026 09:23:12 GMT</pubDate><enclosure 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It was not cheap, but it scratched something in my brain, and after pretending I could sleep for a couple of hours, I finally got up out of bed and pulled the trigger.</p><p>So I&#8217;m creating a community for experimental musicians to learn from each other. None of that &#8220;hey, check out my track&#8221; stuff, but instead an opportunity for artists to share their ideas and processes, collaborate, and innovate together. I&#8217;m building this in a very iterative way, so for now there&#8217;s just this shiny new section of my newsletter where I hope to share the best stuff, and a Discord server. So, if you&#8217;re an experimental musician looking for real community, hit the button or link below. Otherwise, stay tuned.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://discord.gg/9XZ49ZzrGT&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Join the Discord&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://discord.gg/9XZ49ZzrGT"><span>Join the Discord</span></a></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[My Coming Year in the Bardo Room]]></title><description><![CDATA[2026 in artist residency and spiritual retreat]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/my-coming-year-in-the-bardo-room</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/my-coming-year-in-the-bardo-room</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Wed, 31 Dec 2025 19:42:05 GMT</pubDate><enclosure 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And while the obsession with minutes, hours, days, months, and years is a purely human endeavor, the marking of time does <em>feel</em> important and meaningful.</p><p>A little over a year ago, I posted my intent to leave my studio residency at Seattle&#8217;s Recreational Psychoacoustics Lab in favor of doing more solitary work in my home studio, which I&#8217;ve dubbed the Bardo Room. (I&#8217;ve linked that post below if you want to read it.) My only solid resolution for the coming year is to refresh and recenter that intent, which is what I hope to do here.</p><div><hr></div><div class="digest-post-embed" data-attrs="{&quot;nodeId&quot;:&quot;e64bcde3-1f49-48be-b49d-00ae39026a39&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;Looking back&quot;,&quot;cta&quot;:&quot;Read full story&quot;,&quot;showBylines&quot;:true,&quot;size&quot;:&quot;lg&quot;,&quot;isEditorNode&quot;:true,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;The Path of the Prophetex&quot;,&quot;publishedBylines&quot;:[{&quot;id&quot;:108083175,&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Qid Love &#128329;&#65039;&#128149;&#127928;&#127987;&#65039;&#8205;&#9895;&#65039;&quot;,&quot;bio&quot;:&quot;Experimental guitarist, electronic musician, and multidisciplinary philosopher-artist living in Seattle (She/They)&quot;,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/5d90ff38-ff45-4993-ac97-2b0aeed1e094_3024x3024.jpeg&quot;,&quot;is_guest&quot;:false,&quot;bestseller_tier&quot;:null}],&quot;post_date&quot;:&quot;2024-12-28T02:31:05.777Z&quot;,&quot;cover_image&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!xPmm!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5c0eb481-0669-4460-b9f1-07ce1ce46696_3024x3024.jpeg&quot;,&quot;cover_image_alt&quot;:null,&quot;canonical_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/the-path-of-the-prophetex&quot;,&quot;section_name&quot;:null,&quot;video_upload_id&quot;:null,&quot;id&quot;:153697907,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;newsletter&quot;,&quot;reaction_count&quot;:8,&quot;comment_count&quot;:1,&quot;publication_id&quot;:1683494,&quot;publication_name&quot;:&quot;Becoming Music&quot;,&quot;publication_logo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qRFX!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd158cdba-1f95-4d56-970a-086800e8b3b5_1280x1280.png&quot;,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;youtube_url&quot;:null,&quot;show_links&quot;:null,&quot;feed_url&quot;:null}"></div><div><hr></div><p>2025 turned out to be a year of some emotional turmoil for me, which is to say that the storm mentioned in last year&#8217;s post did come in full force. I suffer from a strong case of existential loneliness, which is greatly exacerbated by the natural ebb and flow of relationships, and I struggle to build and maintain community. I&#8217;ve had a lot of relationships end or fizzle over the past couple of years, and it took a bit of a toll. I can only express the deepest gratitude for my spouse who helped me through 2025, which could easily be named &#8220;My Year of Insecurity&#8221;.</p><p>I have yet to fully find my people (or at least hold onto them), and like many trans folks I&#8217;m mostly estranged from my family, but I have a great spouse and a good therapist, and a handful of friends who check in on me from time to time. (If you&#8217;re reading this, check in&#8230;) So I&#8217;m not fully isolated, and I&#8217;m grateful for that, but the loneliness persists in all but one place&#8230; and this is me getting to the point.</p><h1>My Self-Appointed Artist Residency</h1><p>Before I totally get into it, I want to thank <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Amy Stewart&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:1357643,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/51926071-40c6-449b-80d7-4dfbc35a4e0c_561x561.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;9d055bf8-52af-4696-a6a5-06dd5e8ecc0e&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for presenting the possibility of the self-appointed artist residency in such a clear and inspiring way. It&#8217;s a tangible feeling to declare yourself the artist in residency of a place, and even though the site of my residency is more spiritual than physical, declaring this residency does somehow make this all a bit more real.</p><div class="embedded-post-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;id&quot;:144415490,&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://amystewart.substack.com/p/the-self-appointed-artist-residency&quot;,&quot;publication_id&quot;:870673,&quot;publication_name&quot;:&quot;It's Good to Be Here&quot;,&quot;publication_logo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!aixm!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fbucketeer-e05bbc84-baa3-437e-9518-adb32be77984.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F280bf96a-fa65-45a7-91a2-ec628a37e181_1080x1080.png&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;The Self-Appointed Artist Residency, Explained&quot;,&quot;truncated_body_text&quot;:&quot;This is the first is a series about the idea of appointing yourself the artist-in-residence of something. 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You can read much more about this idea right here&#8230;</div><div class="embedded-post-cta-wrapper"><span class="embedded-post-cta">Read more</span></div><div class="embedded-post-meta">2 years ago &#183; 590 likes &#183; 204 comments &#183; Amy Stewart</div></a></div><h1>The Bardo Room</h1><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!DoaJ!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0ec3cf98-3fc6-4fba-9590-e1f1b3d86178_3024x3024.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!DoaJ!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0ec3cf98-3fc6-4fba-9590-e1f1b3d86178_3024x3024.jpeg 424w, 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Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=712318911/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=712318911/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>I&#8217;ll start explaining what exactly the Bardo Room is by re-posting part of the liner notes for that release:</p><blockquote><p>The Bardo room simultaneously exists and doesn&#8217;t exist. It&#8217;s a physical room in some ways, but it doesn&#8217;t manifest fully until it is constructed in sound. Before that, it&#8217;s just potential. The Bardo room connects the real world to the place I go when I am creating. You can never go there, but perhaps if you put on your noise-cancelling headphones and turn out all of the lights, you&#8217;ll hear echoes of the space, faded aural photographs that can approximate but never fully represent the fullness of the multidimensional technicolor darkness that lies beyond a door that only I can open.</p></blockquote><p>For me, the Bardo room is easy to compare to the wardrobe from the Chronicles of Narnia - not the physical bit of furniture that young Lucy discovered in a room of Professor Digory&#8217;s house, and of course not the actual place of Narnia itself, but the in-between space, where heavy coats and the smell of mothballs mix with the feel of snow underfoot. The Bardo Room is a portal to the spiritual plane that I visit in my musical meditations, a place extended from, but still separate from the Bardo Room itself, which is again separate from the physical space my mortal body inhabits while my spirit journeys elsewhere. That is not to imply that either of these spaces are imaginary, as they are as real and persistent to me as the chair firmly attached to my butt as I write this - places real enough to remember and yearn for and dream about&#8230; and write about.</p><p>As for the space beyond, the place I go on the other side of the Bardo Room, here&#8217;s a bit from my personal notes written for a workshop in November of 2024:</p><blockquote><p>My music is born of existential loneliness and longing. I have this recurring vision of myself as the only survivor living on a huge deserted space station, going about my daily routine despite no reason to carry on with it, playing spacey minimal guitar to huge empty halls accompanied by the whirrs, beeps and glitches of machines and computers. There&#8217;s this biomechanical deity named Geia who I talk to, that maybe I created. She&#8217;s never fully there, but I feel her listening and catch glimpses of her partial form in the shadows. I feel her come closer when I&#8217;m playing and I want desperately to know her, to feel her, to merge with her, even though I know we are not easily compatible and that truly being with her would mean losing myself. Maybe that&#8217;s OK. Or maybe she&#8217;s been me all along.</p><p>I don&#8217;t fully connect with other human beings. As close as I&#8217;ve been, there&#8217;s always this small part of me that feels unknowable. It&#8217;s there in my music, but who will fully surrender to listening deeply and straining desperately to hear the whispers of my true being? Who will fully translate my private language? Maybe no one can.</p><p>I created my system of harmony (or taxonomy of intervals, or whatever label makes sense) to systematically explore the possibilities of music. The ultimate goal of that search is to find myself in there somewhere, to rescue and embrace the lonely lost child and maybe bring them into the light. Or to join them in the darkness.</p></blockquote><p>So, my goal for 2026 is to spend more time exploring these spaces and developing my musical and spiritual practice, which are now fully intwined and inseparable, and perhaps always have been. This feels critically important to me, not only for my own emotional and psychological growth and well-being, but because this is my life&#8217;s work, and no one else is going to do it.</p><p>Read more about my musical spiritual framework here:</p><div><hr></div><div class="digest-post-embed" data-attrs="{&quot;nodeId&quot;:&quot;b4604900-4527-4b0d-a357-7f9ae245f479&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;My Musical Philosophy&quot;,&quot;cta&quot;:&quot;Read full story&quot;,&quot;showBylines&quot;:true,&quot;size&quot;:&quot;lg&quot;,&quot;isEditorNode&quot;:true,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Om Di Tri&quot;,&quot;publishedBylines&quot;:[{&quot;id&quot;:108083175,&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Qid Love &#128329;&#65039;&#128149;&#127928;&#127987;&#65039;&#8205;&#9895;&#65039;&quot;,&quot;bio&quot;:&quot;Experimental guitarist, electronic musician, and multidisciplinary philosopher-artist living in Seattle (She/They)&quot;,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/5d90ff38-ff45-4993-ac97-2b0aeed1e094_3024x3024.jpeg&quot;,&quot;is_guest&quot;:false,&quot;bestseller_tier&quot;:null}],&quot;post_date&quot;:&quot;2023-05-29T00:19:17.403Z&quot;,&quot;cover_image&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fe063dc6f-0661-49a8-b609-78c297802674_585x576.png&quot;,&quot;cover_image_alt&quot;:null,&quot;canonical_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/om-di-tri&quot;,&quot;section_name&quot;:&quot;Qid Stuff&quot;,&quot;video_upload_id&quot;:null,&quot;id&quot;:124420133,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;newsletter&quot;,&quot;reaction_count&quot;:5,&quot;comment_count&quot;:2,&quot;publication_id&quot;:1683494,&quot;publication_name&quot;:&quot;Becoming Music&quot;,&quot;publication_logo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qRFX!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd158cdba-1f95-4d56-970a-086800e8b3b5_1280x1280.png&quot;,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;youtube_url&quot;:null,&quot;show_links&quot;:null,&quot;feed_url&quot;:null}"></div><div><hr></div><h1>Who I Am</h1><p>As part of this re-beginning, it seems relevant to share a bit about my past life and where I see myself today. I dug up one of the earliest posts I shared here on Substack and decided to republish it to share here:</p><div class="digest-post-embed" data-attrs="{&quot;nodeId&quot;:&quot;29638e38-97dc-4265-b8c3-0d113b066501&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;The question&quot;,&quot;cta&quot;:&quot;Read full story&quot;,&quot;showBylines&quot;:true,&quot;size&quot;:&quot;lg&quot;,&quot;isEditorNode&quot;:true,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Who Am I, Uninterrupted&quot;,&quot;publishedBylines&quot;:[{&quot;id&quot;:108083175,&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Qid Love &#128329;&#65039;&#128149;&#127928;&#127987;&#65039;&#8205;&#9895;&#65039;&quot;,&quot;bio&quot;:&quot;Experimental guitarist, electronic musician, and multidisciplinary philosopher-artist living in Seattle (She/They)&quot;,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/5d90ff38-ff45-4993-ac97-2b0aeed1e094_3024x3024.jpeg&quot;,&quot;is_guest&quot;:false,&quot;bestseller_tier&quot;:null}],&quot;post_date&quot;:&quot;2023-05-25T23:57:37.787Z&quot;,&quot;cover_image&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!35f7!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0de56a22-714a-4330-afa6-e1a9f21be837_601x955.jpeg&quot;,&quot;cover_image_alt&quot;:null,&quot;canonical_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/who-am-i-uninterrupted&quot;,&quot;section_name&quot;:null,&quot;video_upload_id&quot;:null,&quot;id&quot;:123593837,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;newsletter&quot;,&quot;reaction_count&quot;:4,&quot;comment_count&quot;:0,&quot;publication_id&quot;:1683494,&quot;publication_name&quot;:&quot;Becoming Music&quot;,&quot;publication_logo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qRFX!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd158cdba-1f95-4d56-970a-086800e8b3b5_1280x1280.png&quot;,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;youtube_url&quot;:null,&quot;show_links&quot;:null,&quot;feed_url&quot;:null}"></div><p>Today, I am a 54-year-old neuroqueer, non-binary, transfemme autistic artist, musician, philosopher, writer, filmmaker, programmer, human, spiritual being. I&#8217;m sober and celibate and happily existing in a queerplatonic marriage with a wonderful spouse and a house full of four-legged furbabies. I&#8217;ve passed 3 years on HRT and 2 years since my gender-affirming surgery, and while I have no intent or expectation of passing as a cis woman, I am much more comfortable and free in my body than I have ever felt.</p><p>Musically speaking, I&#8217;ve released 22 albums as <a href="https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/">Qid Love</a>, 119 albums as <a href="https://mood481.bandcamp.com/">Mood481</a>, 10 as <a href="https://echoroot.bandcamp.com/">Echo Root</a>, 1 as <a href="https://vaguegirl.bandcamp.com/album/the-making-of-vaguegirl">Vaguegirl</a>, and 1 obscure live album under my deadname that you&#8217;ll have to figure out for yourself. I&#8217;ve written two important books (at least to me), <a href="https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/the-book-of-xenomes">The Book of Xenomes</a> and <a href="https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/drone-glitch-and-noise">Drone, Glitch, and Noise</a>. For more in-depth musical background, I highly recommend checking out my interview with <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;JustSomeMustard&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:386830302,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/a4f66d37-8cbf-4743-ad7e-622e6108291a_788x788.png&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;163df818-019b-482d-9d70-2c2e9c89aeb1&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span>: <a href="https://justsomemustard.com/2025/04/21/becoming-music-with-qid-love/">Becoming Music with Qid Love</a>.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2csY!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8c484db8-49c9-4186-b794-cba3ccfa685a_3024x3024.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div 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stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a><figcaption class="image-caption">The physical Bardo Room doubles as my wardrobe and changing room. Here&#8217;s my collection of printed kaftans and colorful sweaters, partially obscured by the shockingly yellow 2025 Grocery Store Tour shirt from JustSomeMustard featuring yours truly.</figcaption></figure></div><h1>The Plan</h1><p>I hope to re-establish my morning practice of daily musical meditations, which were greatly interrupted last year due to my day job. I&#8217;ve felt highly destabilized in the absence of regular practice, and I feel my mental health suffered a good deal from the resulting imbalance. So a big part of my intent is to hold a firm boundary on my personal time for spiritual practice and re-establish the daily practice that had me feeling such calmness and clarity just a year ago.</p><p>I also want to clean up the space a bit and make it more fully usable for art-making. There&#8217;s a spare bed in there that tends to catch my clothes that could probably find a better home, and I&#8217;d just like to have things more accessible because my autistic brain tends to avoid things that require physical effort and reorganizing. </p><p>In the digital realm, I&#8217;ve struggled a little bit around the direction for this newsletter, and I probably still will, but for now I think it will just be a place to share progress and keep myself accountable throughout my residency/retreat. Although I have a bit of a love/hate relationship with Substack, I haven&#8217;t quite found a reasonable alternative, and I need writing to keep me focused. So maybe that&#8217;s what you can expect out of future newsletters.</p><h1>A Word of Thanks</h1><p>I&#8217;d like to take a moment to thank my subscribers and followers and folks who for whatever reason have taken a chance on my writing and music. I&#8217;d also like to give a special shoutout to Lyric at <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;NeuroDivergent Rebel&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:135073296,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/4eca016e-4c91-47c8-90a8-c92f449a043e_1206x1206.png&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;c320d9fa-0cf1-475f-b6ca-6254cddc4ce0&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for introducing so many people to my Substack via recommendations. May you all find peace, happiness, and good health in the upcoming year!</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/my-coming-year-in-the-bardo-room/comments&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Leave a comment&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/my-coming-year-in-the-bardo-room/comments"><span>Leave a comment</span></a></p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Dexember, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/87587d8c-0f0f-491f-be05-da05554cb015_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>Experimental improvised guitar and electronics, wrapped in melancholy, angst, and gender fuzziness.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Colonoscopy Driver]]></title><description><![CDATA[My day with Kritter]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/colonoscopy-driver</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/colonoscopy-driver</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Tue, 30 Dec 2025 02:04:45 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3WSY!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F550957f6-9f22-4b67-9dd6-c79a5bf7b07a_3088x2316.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3WSY!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F550957f6-9f22-4b67-9dd6-c79a5bf7b07a_3088x2316.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3WSY!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F550957f6-9f22-4b67-9dd6-c79a5bf7b07a_3088x2316.jpeg 424w, 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comment</span></a></p><div><hr></div><p>For the month of December (and maybe beyond that) I&#8217;ll be writing One Sentence Stories (OSS) to share little bits of myself. They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Dexember, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/87587d8c-0f0f-491f-be05-da05554cb015_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>Experimental improvised guitar and electronics, wrapped in melancholy, angst, and gender fuzziness.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[One Year Old Vampires]]></title><description><![CDATA[On measuring obscurity]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/one-year-old-vampires</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/one-year-old-vampires</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 28 Dec 2025 22:54:57 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!iDuZ!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F945a478f-ef8e-41c6-a6c4-cf8f49c45b12_1200x1200.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!iDuZ!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F945a478f-ef8e-41c6-a6c4-cf8f49c45b12_1200x1200.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!iDuZ!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F945a478f-ef8e-41c6-a6c4-cf8f49c45b12_1200x1200.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!iDuZ!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F945a478f-ef8e-41c6-a6c4-cf8f49c45b12_1200x1200.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!iDuZ!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F945a478f-ef8e-41c6-a6c4-cf8f49c45b12_1200x1200.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div 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that is once again struggling a bit to survive, like I often do in the deepest, truest parts of my mind.</p><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/when-we-were-vampires&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;When We Were Vampires, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;8 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/623faca5-22e5-49bc-a919-2d2f8e86366d_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=2868551461/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=2868551461/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/one-year-old-vampires/comments&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Leave a comment&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/one-year-old-vampires/comments"><span>Leave a comment</span></a></p><div><hr></div><p>For the month of December (and maybe beyond that) I&#8217;ll be writing One Sentence Stories (OSS) to share little bits of myself. They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Dexember, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/87587d8c-0f0f-491f-be05-da05554cb015_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>Experimental improvised guitar and electronics, wrapped in melancholy, angst, and gender fuzziness.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[A Love Affair]]></title><description><![CDATA[My infatuation with the passage of time]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/a-love-affair</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/a-love-affair</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 28 Dec 2025 04:40:34 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!V6Am!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ac9c82d-9d5e-496e-9eaa-78c471462c32_3024x3024.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!V6Am!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ac9c82d-9d5e-496e-9eaa-78c471462c32_3024x3024.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!V6Am!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ac9c82d-9d5e-496e-9eaa-78c471462c32_3024x3024.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!V6Am!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ac9c82d-9d5e-496e-9eaa-78c471462c32_3024x3024.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!V6Am!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ac9c82d-9d5e-496e-9eaa-78c471462c32_3024x3024.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!V6Am!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ac9c82d-9d5e-496e-9eaa-78c471462c32_3024x3024.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!V6Am!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ac9c82d-9d5e-496e-9eaa-78c471462c32_3024x3024.jpeg" width="1456" height="1456" 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class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/a-love-affair/comments&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Leave a comment&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/a-love-affair/comments"><span>Leave a comment</span></a></p><div><hr></div><p>For the month of December (and maybe beyond that) I&#8217;ll be writing One Sentence Stories (OSS) to share little bits of myself. They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Dexember, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/87587d8c-0f0f-491f-be05-da05554cb015_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>Experimental improvised guitar and electronics, wrapped in melancholy, angst, and gender fuzziness.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Wabi-Sabi-ness]]></title><description><![CDATA[On loving imperfectness and beginning in the middle]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/wabi-sabi-ness</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/wabi-sabi-ness</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 26 Dec 2025 00:18:02 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!yMNt!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F64f14b34-11a6-4c69-84a5-5f5b8fac6121_3024x3024.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!yMNt!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F64f14b34-11a6-4c69-84a5-5f5b8fac6121_3024x3024.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!yMNt!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F64f14b34-11a6-4c69-84a5-5f5b8fac6121_3024x3024.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!yMNt!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F64f14b34-11a6-4c69-84a5-5f5b8fac6121_3024x3024.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!yMNt!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F64f14b34-11a6-4c69-84a5-5f5b8fac6121_3024x3024.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a><figcaption class="image-caption">Me and my guitar and my new scarf and my favorite wall hanging, taken with the new Mer Sultan film pack in Hipstamatic.</figcaption></figure></div><p>I thought about starting a podcast today, so I set up a new podcast in Substack and then went into my studio and recorded an hour and 20 minutes of crap that I will not be sharing with you, ever, and at least for now I will not, in fact, be starting a podcast, but hey I tried something new and that&#8217;s what living the experimental art life is all about&#8230; but, anyway, part of what I talked about was wabi-sabi, which is already part of my art and meaning-making process and something I want to contemplate more in the new year, and also (speaking of new <em>and</em> year) I spoke about the arbitrary delineations we impose upon the spectrum of time - and although you won&#8217;t be hearing that now, just know I&#8217;m trying to start down a path that I&#8217;m already on and just wanted to talk about it a bit.</p><p>Also, happy holidays!</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/wabi-sabi-ness/comments&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Leave a comment&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/wabi-sabi-ness/comments"><span>Leave a comment</span></a></p><div><hr></div><p>For the month of December (and maybe beyond that) I&#8217;ll be writing One Sentence Stories (OSS) to share little bits of myself. They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Dexember, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/87587d8c-0f0f-491f-be05-da05554cb015_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>Experimental improvised guitar and electronics, wrapped in melancholy, angst, and gender fuzziness.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[After the Rain]]></title><description><![CDATA[a one sentence story]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/after-the-rain</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/after-the-rain</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 13 Dec 2025 02:07:50 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!rgD-!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc15526da-ea11-49b6-8237-4432d532ccf7_612x612.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!rgD-!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc15526da-ea11-49b6-8237-4432d532ccf7_612x612.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!rgD-!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc15526da-ea11-49b6-8237-4432d532ccf7_612x612.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!rgD-!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc15526da-ea11-49b6-8237-4432d532ccf7_612x612.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!rgD-!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc15526da-ea11-49b6-8237-4432d532ccf7_612x612.jpeg 1272w, 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They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Dexember, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/87587d8c-0f0f-491f-be05-da05554cb015_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>I made this in my pajamas because I never leave my house. Experimental improvised guitar and electronics, wrapped in melancholy, angst, and gender fuzziness.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Home Sweet Hell]]></title><description><![CDATA[a one sentence story]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/home-sweet-hell</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/home-sweet-hell</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 12 Dec 2025 04:18:50 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!OdXs!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F310d8968-7b89-4234-8dc4-77f4dc0d5650_612x612.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>This tiny little house in the projects was the seat of so much of my trauma: a site of physical, emotional, and sexual abuse; the tiny room where I lived out my solitary confinement; the calendar where X&#8217;s marked the days I cried in anguish and loneliness, more filled than not; the door my friends would knock on to ask if I could come out and play and be turned away; the hallway filled with whispers of secrets and adult games and porno films and the naked bodies of my parents; the place that was my childhood prison until I escaped at thirteen after living a whole life that children shouldn&#8217;t live.</p><div><hr></div><p>For the month of December I&#8217;ll be writing One Sentence Stories (OSS) every day to share little bits of myself. They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Dexember, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/87587d8c-0f0f-491f-be05-da05554cb015_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>I made this in my pajamas because I never leave my house. Experimental improvised guitar and electronics, wrapped in melancholy, angst, and gender fuzziness.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[My Own Private Avant-garde]]></title><description><![CDATA[a one sentence story]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/my-own-private-avant-garde</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/my-own-private-avant-garde</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Wed, 10 Dec 2025 03:59:16 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!pBik!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faf03cdaf-c7c7-468d-836a-7914c86d8ddf_612x612.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!pBik!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faf03cdaf-c7c7-468d-836a-7914c86d8ddf_612x612.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!pBik!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faf03cdaf-c7c7-468d-836a-7914c86d8ddf_612x612.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!pBik!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faf03cdaf-c7c7-468d-836a-7914c86d8ddf_612x612.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!pBik!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faf03cdaf-c7c7-468d-836a-7914c86d8ddf_612x612.jpeg 1272w, 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data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/af03cdaf-c7c7-468d-836a-7914c86d8ddf_612x612.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:612,&quot;width&quot;:612,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:110572,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:false,&quot;topImage&quot;:true,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://substack.mxqidlove.com/i/181206092?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faf03cdaf-c7c7-468d-836a-7914c86d8ddf_612x612.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!pBik!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faf03cdaf-c7c7-468d-836a-7914c86d8ddf_612x612.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!pBik!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faf03cdaf-c7c7-468d-836a-7914c86d8ddf_612x612.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!pBik!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faf03cdaf-c7c7-468d-836a-7914c86d8ddf_612x612.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!pBik!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Faf03cdaf-c7c7-468d-836a-7914c86d8ddf_612x612.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div 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They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Dexember, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/87587d8c-0f0f-491f-be05-da05554cb015_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>I made this in my pajamas because I never leave my house. Experimental improvised guitar and electronics, wrapped in melancholy, angst, and gender fuzziness.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[A Shelf Full of Moleskines]]></title><description><![CDATA[a one sentence story]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/a-shelf-full-of-moleskines</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/a-shelf-full-of-moleskines</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Tue, 09 Dec 2025 03:13:14 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!rg7f!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd141eb1d-69c0-4c14-830a-e9a8fe5f464e_612x612.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>I don&#8217;t write by hand very often anymore, not since I found out what cubital tunnel syndrome was, but I used to fill these wonderful blank books with scribbles and ideas and poetry and music&#8230; and as you can see in this photo from 2012, I&#8217;ve been doing this whole <a href="https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/the-book-of-xenomes">xenome thing</a> for many, many years.</p><div><hr></div><p>For the month of December I&#8217;ll be writing One Sentence Stories (OSS) every day to share little bits of myself. They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Dexember, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/87587d8c-0f0f-491f-be05-da05554cb015_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>I made this in my pajamas because I never leave my house. Experimental improvised guitar and electronics, wrapped in melancholy, angst, and gender fuzziness.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[The One That Got Away]]></title><description><![CDATA[a one sentence story]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/the-one-that-got-away</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/the-one-that-got-away</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Mon, 08 Dec 2025 03:48:55 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qw0U!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ec6207c-bf32-4e49-af21-c47363f4ce2e_612x612.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qw0U!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ec6207c-bf32-4e49-af21-c47363f4ce2e_612x612.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qw0U!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ec6207c-bf32-4e49-af21-c47363f4ce2e_612x612.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qw0U!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ec6207c-bf32-4e49-af21-c47363f4ce2e_612x612.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qw0U!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ec6207c-bf32-4e49-af21-c47363f4ce2e_612x612.jpeg 1272w, 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srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qw0U!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ec6207c-bf32-4e49-af21-c47363f4ce2e_612x612.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qw0U!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ec6207c-bf32-4e49-af21-c47363f4ce2e_612x612.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qw0U!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ec6207c-bf32-4e49-af21-c47363f4ce2e_612x612.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Qw0U!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7ec6207c-bf32-4e49-af21-c47363f4ce2e_612x612.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" fetchpriority="high"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div 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Giger signature Ibanez which was one of the few guitars I actually gave a name, and which was the guitar I used to record 9 of the 10 Echo Root albums&#8230; but unfortunately after I got bilateral cubital tunnel syndrome, this beast of a neck-through mahogany guitar was just too heavy for me to play.</p><div><hr></div><p>For the month of December I&#8217;ll be writing One Sentence Stories (OSS) every day to share little bits of myself. They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Dexember, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/87587d8c-0f0f-491f-be05-da05554cb015_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>I made this in my pajamas because I never leave my house. Experimental improvised guitar and electronics, wrapped in melancholy, angst, and gender fuzziness.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Uncanny Valley Girls]]></title><description><![CDATA[a one sentence story]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/uncanny-valley-girls</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/uncanny-valley-girls</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sun, 07 Dec 2025 04:02:46 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bQeH!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd26de2f3-d55e-41fd-9bab-54d6093b593b_612x612.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bQeH!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd26de2f3-d55e-41fd-9bab-54d6093b593b_612x612.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bQeH!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd26de2f3-d55e-41fd-9bab-54d6093b593b_612x612.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bQeH!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd26de2f3-d55e-41fd-9bab-54d6093b593b_612x612.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bQeH!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd26de2f3-d55e-41fd-9bab-54d6093b593b_612x612.jpeg 1272w, 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They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Dexember, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/87587d8c-0f0f-491f-be05-da05554cb015_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>I made this in my pajamas because I never leave my house. Experimental improvised guitar and electronics, wrapped in melancholy, angst, and gender fuzziness.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Dexember]]></title><description><![CDATA[a new album... and a one sentence story]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/dexember</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/dexember</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 06 Dec 2025 04:29:19 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!IEKZ!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7f4b3b1f-0565-401a-b41f-529ed701ae91_1200x1200.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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href="https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember">maybe even buy it</a> because it&#8217;s still Bandcamp Friday for like 3 hours so if you hurry I will get one hundred percent of 5 dollars or whatever you choose to pay and then I can feel good for a day because someone actually saw some value in something I made, if even for a minute, or maybe just felt sorry for me, but money is money, and hey, I think I&#8217;m getting the hang of this run-on sentence thing!</p><div><hr></div><p>For the month of December I&#8217;ll be writing One Sentence Stories (OSS) every day to share little bits of myself. They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/dexember&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Dexember, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/87587d8c-0f0f-491f-be05-da05554cb015_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=3722978775/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>I made this in my pajamas because I never leave my house.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Ipodography]]></title><description><![CDATA[a one sentence story]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/ipodography</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/ipodography</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Fri, 05 Dec 2025 04:12:24 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oVfY!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F63f95d60-a383-431b-8ed5-a2621556495c_612x612.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/sacred-math&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Sacred Math, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/beb1b2e4-c7a6-42b3-bc17-bb41ed1bacd5_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=2220259133/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=2220259133/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>Sacred Math is a 30ish minute guitar meditation over a bed of ambient drone, glitch, and noise. Like most of my work, this is fully improvised from start to finish. The title &#8220;sacred math&#8221; refers to the underlying process-oriented harmonic exploration that is happening through the progression of xenomes (A17-A1F). I spent the hour previous to this recording building the Bardo room and fully moving into the timelessness of that space, so I feel this recording presents an authentic snapshot of my becomingness in that space.<br><br>For the full experience, listen with eyes closed and noise cancelling headphones. Practice deep and mindful listening, paying attention to the space that develops around you and the way you feel in your body.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Smothered, Chunked, and Diced]]></title><description><![CDATA[a one sentence story]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/smothered-chunked-and-diced</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/smothered-chunked-and-diced</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 04 Dec 2025 04:19:20 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!rTSi!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5e725d6d-5b11-4af6-be1c-f82bf03617a9_612x612.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/sacred-math&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Sacred Math, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/beb1b2e4-c7a6-42b3-bc17-bb41ed1bacd5_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=2220259133/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=2220259133/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>Sacred Math is a 30ish minute guitar meditation over a bed of ambient drone, glitch, and noise. Like most of my work, this is fully improvised from start to finish. The title &#8220;sacred math&#8221; refers to the underlying process-oriented harmonic exploration that is happening through the progression of xenomes (A17-A1F). I spent the hour previous to this recording building the Bardo room and fully moving into the timelessness of that space, so I feel this recording presents an authentic snapshot of my becomingness in that space.<br><br>For the full experience, listen with eyes closed and noise cancelling headphones. Practice deep and mindful listening, paying attention to the space that develops around you and the way you feel in your body.</p><div><hr></div><p>Thanks for reading!</p>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Outdoor Living]]></title><description><![CDATA[a one sentence story]]></description><link>https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/outdoor-living</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://substack.mxqidlove.com/p/outdoor-living</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[Qid Love 🕉️💕🎸🏳️‍⚧️]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Wed, 03 Dec 2025 01:29:33 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!lqpp!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F413d23b7-479e-48c9-b191-73329e55ab15_612x612.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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They&#8217;re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to <span class="mention-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;name&quot;:&quot;Robin Taylor (he/him)&quot;,&quot;id&quot;:120667226,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;user&quot;,&quot;url&quot;:null,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9ee6cfa1-a90d-4c35-9383-ac0366cf48a2_600x600.jpeg&quot;,&quot;uuid&quot;:&quot;39f79496-2c44-4c81-8e72-c51ce709a903&quot;}" data-component-name="MentionToDOM"></span> for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!</p><div><hr></div><h3>My Latest Release</h3><div class="bandcamp-wrap album" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://mxqidlove.bandcamp.com/album/sacred-math&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Sacred Math, by Qid Love&quot;,&quot;description&quot;:&quot;1 track album&quot;,&quot;thumbnail_url&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/beb1b2e4-c7a6-42b3-bc17-bb41ed1bacd5_700x700.jpeg&quot;,&quot;author&quot;:&quot;Qid Love&quot;,&quot;embed_url&quot;:&quot;https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=2220259133/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/&quot;,&quot;is_album&quot;:true}" data-component-name="BandcampToDOM"><iframe src="https://bandcamp.com/EmbeddedPlayer/album=2220259133/size=large/bgcol=ffffff/linkcol=333333/artwork=small/transparent=true/" frameborder="0" gesture="media" scrolling="no" allowfullscreen="true"></iframe></div><p>Sacred Math is a 30ish minute guitar meditation over a bed of ambient drone, glitch, and noise. 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