About this release

This album is a collection of contemplative improvisations recorded for FAWM 2026. My recordings are generally more durational in nature, but I wanted these to be consumable by folks with less time to commit.

The title has dual meanings: 1. electronic communication via sound waves; 2. a direct, non-spoken passing of spiritual energy or consciousness.

Creating on Crip Time

The goal of FAWM is to record at least 14 songs in 28 days. I managed 5 over 3 days. I’ve been feeling my disability a lot more directly lately, with fatigue, inability to focus, and lessened executive function taking a chunk out of my available time for sitting with my guitar. I am grateful for what I have and I try to be kind to myself, but sometimes the math is depressing when I think about how much I still have to explore and how little time and energy I have to make it happen. At the end of it, I suppose I will have done the best I can with the resources I had available, and perhaps that’s all any of us can wish for.

I’ve recently had to formally request disability accommodations at my day job and it has me feeling a certain kind of way. I’ve had informal relational accommodations by verbal agreement and understanding, but this feels so much different, having to document everything and get supporting letters from my care team, for a committee to determine if they’re willing to allow me to continue working in the same way I’ve been working all along.

Disability has of course shaped my musical practice in many ways over my life and I must remind myself that this is just another leg of the path. Making music is a primary path to meaning for me, and I will always find a way to connect to spirit through music. And while I truly only make music for my own purposes, I do hope that I can transmit some of my deep understanding of the spiritual power of music to those willing to listen.

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About this release

This work came together over the last 5 days, spread across mediums, too powerful to be held in a single form. This is intended as a virtual asynchronous exhibit with music, artwork and poetry. Read the poem and then listen to the music while viewing the artwork.

Sorry For Your Loss

Hatred is a blanket
Smothering the soul
And blocking out the light
Yet warm and safe and simple
Stifling echoes in silence
The ghostly grip of your mother’s arms
Dislodging the cries from your belly

Love can be lonely
Needing a soft target
Positioned for penetration
Wrapping gratefully around
The sharpness of your desire
Suddenly trapping and clinging
Siphoning your soul

Hatred is a shield
Reflecting possibility
Protecting your lonely child
Projecting completeness in separation
Cheered by brothers and fathers
Needing your pain to satiate theirs
A sacred circle of sacrifice

Love is elusive
Property of the pitiful
Bitches and abominations
Godforsaken and forsaking god
Your anger may be righteous
But we’re not mad at you
Just sorry for your loss

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This is a processing of personal and collective grief.

During this morning’s guitar meditation session, I found myself continuing to dwell on and process the shock, fear, and grief that many of us are feeling. These tracks are the result of that. I wanted to release and share this to mark a moment and to never forget or forgive what they are taking from us.

From Wikipedia:

On January 7, 2026, Renee Nicole Good, a 37-year-old woman and US citizen, was fatally shot by a United States Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) agent Jonathan Ross in Minneapolis, Minnesota. Good was idling in a car at the scene of an ongoing ICE operation, when she was approached by ICE agents who gave conflicting orders. As Good attempted to exit the area, in response to one of the issued orders, she passed near Ross, who shot her in the head, despite not standing in the path of the car. Federal officials and President Donald Trump have defended the shooting, claiming Ross acted in self-defense and falsely claiming that Good attempted to run him over. These claims have been widely debunked by eyewitnesses, by journalists’ analysis of video footage, by local figures, and by Democratic Party lawmakers, the latter of whom have called for a criminal investigation.

(Note: the price of this album is an artistic statement. Please go to my GetMusic page and get it for free.)

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I sat down today, picked up my guitar, flipped a bunch of switches, and hit record on my iPad, capturing 35 minutes and 13 minutes of improvised guitar and electronics, and then made some weird glitchy art on my iPhone for a cover, chose a name out of the aether and slapped some text on the image, which is a thing I do sometimes because I’m an experimental artist who will probably never make a living doing what I love but choose to do it anyway because not making art seems like a death sentence, and since I went to all that trouble maybe you could listen to it or maybe even buy it because it’s still Bandcamp Friday for like 3 hours so if you hurry I will get one hundred percent of 5 dollars or whatever you choose to pay and then I can feel good for a day because someone actually saw some value in something I made, if even for a minute, or maybe just felt sorry for me, but money is money, and hey, I think I’m getting the hang of this run-on sentence thing!

For the month of December I’ll be writing One Sentence Stories (OSS) every day to share little bits of myself. They’re 100% true and 110% run-on sentences. Thanks so much to for the amazing idea. Feel free to join in and tag me so I can read along!

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I made this in my pajamas because I never leave my house.

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Becoming Music

Welcome, sojourner! Thank you for being with me in this moment. I have some news and announcements, and perhaps you’ve already noticed the change in the newsletter name. I’m officially rebranding from “The Prophetex” to “Becoming Music” because I feel it more fully embodies my practice and what I want to write about, while being a bit more legible for folks who might stumble across it.

“Becoming” is a powerful concept, and the more I have meditated on it, the more it feels like the center of everything. Recognizing and allowing yourself to be in a state of perpetual becoming can remove so much of the weight of existence. If you feel powerless and useless and barely able to drag yourself out of bed, you are still in the state of becoming. If you feel energetic and motivated and clear-minded, you are in the state of becoming. Even as you pass the threshold of accomplishment by finishing something difficult, you are still in the process of becoming. Becoming is the state we all live in all of the time, and yet it is easy to forget, because we are focused on the past or the future. Right now, in this moment, we are all becoming.

“Becoming Music” speaks to music as a spiritual practice. I will continue to write more about this, and I’m pretty sure there’s a book in there somewhere, and maybe more. My musical journey over the past 4 decades has brought me to a place where I can clearly feel the purpose and meaning of music in my life as powerfully as any religion or spiritual philosophy. I start each day with contemplative improvisation, touching the sacredness and timelessness of sound to remind me of my true nature and my connection to the source. Moving forward, I’d like to use this space to share more of my practice and insights around the true power of musical as a spiritual endeavor.

Sacred Math

The image at the top of this newsletter is the cover of the newest Qid Love album, Sacred Math, which I am releasing today.

Sacred Math is a 30ish minute guitar meditation over a bed of ambient drone, glitch, and noise. Like most of my work, this is fully improvised from start to finish. The title “sacred math” refers to the underlying process-oriented harmonic exploration that is happening through the progression of xenomes (A17-A1F). I spent the hour previous to this recording building the Bardo room and fully moving into the timelessness of that space, so I feel this recording presents an authentic snapshot of my becomingness in that space.

For the full experience, listen with eyes closed and noise cancelling headphones. Practice deep and mindful listening, paying attention to the space that develops around you and the way you feel in your body.

To celebrate this release and the first Bandcamp Friday of the year (the day they don’t take a cut of sales and 100% goes to the artists), I decided to make all of my current Qid Love releases available at a 75% discount. You can take advantage of this offer from any of my album pages.

Cryptid Soup

I recently converted my Bandcamp site to a label account, and made Cryptid Soup even more formally a label. As part of this, I divided my Qid Love, Echo Root, and Mood481 releases up into separate artist accounts, creating clear distinct eras and hopefully making my catalog of over 150 releases a little easier to parse and digest. I’m also happy to add fellow cryptid Girl Ballz to the roster, so it’s not just me!

Of course, one of the other things that Cryptid Soup has to offer is a Discord server, which is growing and expanding daily. I hope you’ll drop in, share what you’re working on or thinking about, and add to the conversation !

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The Bardo Room

This freshly constructed aural space contains 35 minutes of liminal ambient atmosphere as temporary respite from the agony of existence. Please listen with headphones on and eyes closed to avoid inter-spatial blurring. Take care of yourself, and thanks for listening.

The Bardo room simultaneously exists and doesn’t exist. It’s a physical room in some ways, but it doesn’t manifest fully until it is constructed in sound. Before that, it’s just potential. The Bardo room connects the real world to the place I go when I am creating. You can never go there, but perhaps if you put on your noise-cancelling headphones and turn out all of the lights, you’ll hear echoes of the space, faded aural photographs that can approximate but never fully represent the fullness of the multidimensional technicolor darkness that lies beyond a door that only I can open.

About the Album

Most mornings I get up, head to my little corner studio, and spend an hour meditating with my guitar. Some days I hit record. Today was one of those days.

There are a bunch of toys on here that I haven’t used in a while, plus it’s the first appearance of my new ASM Hydrasynth Explorer (in sexy, limited-edition orange). If you have a keen eye, you might have noticed the now-extinct Alchemy Mobile in the cover photo. It’s running on a first-gen iPad Air that will eventually die, and then I will be sad. There are a handful of other extinct apps on there, including SpaceWiz.

The theremin sounds are coming from NADA running on my Macbook Air, controlled by Gestrument on the big iPad over Bluetooth. It’s kind of nice to have everything hooked up and talking to each other again. I ran a pretty light rig last year because I was tearing everything down to head to the studio every couple of weeks. Now that I’m stationary for a while, I can play with all the things.

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I’m Here to Help

I’m a trained creativity and existential wellness coach, and I’m happy to help you discover new ways to design your perfect, beautiful world. If having a partner to help create your most important work of art (you) sounds promising, let’s give it a shot.

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Happy Saturday! (or whatever day it is as you’re reading this)

I just released an EP on Bandcamp featuring 4 new tracks, including Blood Philosopher, which I shared back in November. If you’re a Bandcamp collector or someone who likes to download files, you can click here to get a free download code while supplies last.

The tracks on this album are about exploring the darkness and the the inescapable feeling of being ultimately alone. As with all of my music this is best experienced with headphones and mindful listening. So find somewhere you can be alone in the darkness for 30 minutes, close your eyes, and surrender to the magic.

For those following along with my mission to record a track with every xenome/musical scale, these tracks represent xenomes 820 through 823. If you have no idea what a xenome is, I wrote a book about it. Click the button (or link) for more info.

The Book of Xenomes

I decided to release a shorter album this time around because I just got a new hardware synth that will result in some changes to my sound and workflow, so listen up for that in the near future.

In other Bandcamp related news, I decided to demolish the vault and re-list all of my past albums publicly, which means all 148 releases are now available for streaming and purchase. I’m also once again offering the opportunity to purchase my entire back catalog at an 80% discount, or just $1 per album. If you’re a bestest fan and want to support me in a huge way, you can purchase the catalog from any of the release pages.

That’s it for now. Please leave a comment on Substack or drop me an email to let me know what you think of the new album!

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