Dear Diary
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about deconstructing things.
has been rocking my art brain in ungentle ways for a couple of months now, most recently with a live Zoom call where they talked about releasing music, and today with a post about bio writing that once again led me to ponder deeply what the hell I’m doing with my life.After some trial and error, here’s my new bio (for today anyway):
Seattle neuroqueer prophetex Qid Love (they/she) crafts deeply personal sonic sanctuaries at the intersection of spiritual practice and experimental music. Through a distinctive blend of guitar and electronics, they create meditative improvisations that question the very nature of music. Following the un-release of nearly 150 albums, Qid Love is deconstructing sociomusical norms through private sonic rituals and singular artifacts.
My previous official-ish bio was like 4 or 5 long paragraphs, and didn’t quite get to what this one does, so I see it as a win. Thanks, Cass. 💕
The bit I want to elaborate on here is a slight shift that’s been happening over the past few months from simply “questioning the very nature of music” to “deconstructing sociomusical norms.” I’ve gone beyond completely breaking music to deeply inspecting how I present and share music in the world. All of this pondering has led to my impending Un-Release party, wherein I will lock away all of my work in the ominous sounding Vault, beyond the reach of those who don’t lay claim to their digital copies in time. I’ve already removed everything from your favorite exploitative streaming platforms, which means really soon my back catalog gets utterly rarified.
The big question is what comes next. If you’re paying attention, you’re about to find out.
I’m getting locked away in Seattle’s Recreational Psychoacoustics Lab for the foreseeable future to commune with the spirits and work some musical magick with a focus on getting to the very core of musical purpose and experience. I have a manifesto, so it’s serious.
The Cryptid Soup Manifesto
Make art that can’t be digitized.
Make art that only we can make.
Make art that could only exist in this space, in this time.
Destroy the audience.
Don’t worry, no one will be harmed. The goal is to share immersive, participatory experiences that necessarily includes everyone present in the process. Going back to the bio though, these will be small, exclusive, private rituals resulting in singular artifacts which you may read about in future newsletters, but you’ll have to be there for a chance to own one.
I will continue to post these Xenome Diaries tracks here on Substack so that you have something to listen to while you read about the madness going on in my head, so keep watching your inbox.
On Letting Go
As I mentioned earlier, after 11/11, all of my past Bandcamp releases are going into the Vault. If you want to purchase individual releases, take advantage of the current special price on my back catalog, or just stream for free like there’s no tomorrow, now’s the time.
I’m hosting a private Un-Release Party on 11/11 in Seattle. Reach out to me if you’re around and want to attend.
What happens after that? Did you even read what I wrote above?!?
One-on-One Coaching
I’ve launched my creativity and existential wellness coaching program and you can now book time with me to help envision a better life for yourself. Check out my coaching page for more info.
I want to hear from you!
I’ve made a lot of changes lately and I want to hear what you think. Missing something or wanting more? Let me know. Leave a comment, or reply if you’re reading this as an email.
Is this thing on?
Deconstruction Zone